Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Welcome my poor misguided fool.

It's a slightly adapted Starsailor song title.

Well it's 3:40am so about time for a post from moi. Tonight has been ace, my flatmate Andy has finally pulled someone of worth, i've had a fashion update and my view on life has been improved. Although i seriously envy Doug my fellow chef and drinking partner who manged to pull on successive nights out, lucky git.

Anyway, having reached my flat safe and sound it was time for another one of me and Andy's chats about life. The topic of conversation was uncertainty and to a lesser extent change. It seemed to complement my own thoughts of late quite nicely, as i have been pondering the way i view myself alot lately. The years seem to pass by very quickly and the way i consider myself doesn't seem to be able to keep up. I don't see myself as any different from the James Clarke who was in year 11 three years ago. But then again i am reminded more and more of late that i have changed. I see people getting stressed about being in Sixth Form and exploring the new experience, somthing that i enjoyed and became an experienced hand at, i am attending Smithills' christams party this Sunday to find myself as "the old crew" with the newbies thinking i am new, not knowing i am one of the longest serving chefs at Smithills. All this is strange, i'm 18 but feel so much older, without changing from the James who was in year 11. Strange or what?

But has this "old head on young shoulders" idea helped me? i think not.
I am still in pretty much in the same boat, one of my previous posts was about fear, i may have preached a no fear attitiude to love, unfortunately i do not practice what i preach. If ind myself telling Andy "yeah of course you should ring her." But in reality would i do the same? I find myself remined of a couple of Meatloaf Albums the first being "Bat out of hell," the second being "back into hell" do i return to hell? the rewards are great but is the risk of getting burnt to great?

Clarkey

Dark Dull Days.......

Hello to one and all,
recently the dull november days have got me a tad depressed, having thought about myself and how i view my own image, i have come to the conclusion that i still think i am the same person who was in year 10, which really wasn't that long ago, but at thee same time i know i'm different. I see others walking the same path doing the same things as i did "in my younger days."
So as i usually do in my own hyper way, i've decided to come out swinging, it's time for an update!

Anyway i'll let everyone know how this develops.

Clarkey

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Anyone up for a migration?

I was thinking, winter in England is quite frankly SHIT!
It's not cold enough to provide meaningful snowfall and it's dark early.
I say that the whole country move to warmer climate (hopefully minus the scallies)
Or atleast a place like Whistler in Canada, where we will get some proper snow.
These are the rantings of the logical maniac!
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Sunday, November 06, 2005

Ups and Downs, Security and Everything Else.

The usual formula for my rantings seems to be falling into place, once again it is at the unearthly time of 2:30am that i write this piece.
Tonight/this morning (depending on your point of view) i find myself questioning what is happening to this marble we all live on. Having been contending with a horrid cold caught off my fieldtrip that seems to have got the better of me and prevented my original idea of an early night and turned my throat into a biological battleground, i have just recieved the terrible news that Chris has had his laptop stolen by some little bastard Scallies. This is absolutley shit news for anyone, when coupled with my own experience when earlier this week two Scallies tried to steal my phone, it makes me wonder what is happening to this world of ours? I am rapidly forming a view which maybe a little extreme but i think you will agree with when you think about the scale of this national investation. My view is, why hunt foxes? when we could put all those dogs and shotguns to much better use setting them on the Scally population? A good old fashioned mass murder of the Burbery (not burberry as thats the real stuff, they like the fake stuff off the market) loving arseholes would do wonders for this country, think about it massive drop in benefit applications, massive drop in crime, what more can anyone ask for?

In other areas things do not seem much better, the cries of the threat of global warming and climate change are growing louder and more concerning, especially now i look into the problem in much more detail. Meanwhile oil companies make record profits and Bush and Co seem to be commited to procurring oil from a military campaign, (Iraq anyone?)
Next on the hitlist seems to be Iran which i would whole heartedly be against on the behalf of common sence, why go after a nation with Nuclear and Biological weapons?
I know they can try and argue the idea of morality, but they have been exactly the same way for decades and quite frankly no body really cares. The same excuse was used for Saddam but especially looking at the result of the war, i have come to the conclusion that; he may have been an evil, immoral dictator but what he did do was keep that area relatively stable. By the invasion of Iraq we probabley created 1000s or even 10 000s more suicide bombers and people now hate the west, extremism grows in uncertain times and so surely has the ranks of terrorist organisations.

Next is a piece of information that quite frankly shocked me when i heard it, Asda (part of the "Walmart family") is now tagging it's employees in it's stores so that it beeps when they are still for over 2 mins. How i wonder in a supposedly Labour Government (who's whole reason for life was to represent the working population in parliment) can allow this to happen is quite beyond me, still further the NHS is taking more steps towards privatisation with it's instutions slowly being sold off one by one under the pretence of modernisation.

At this point i must point you into the direction of a lecture i had recently which seems to apply to this present situation: the lecturer was talking about famine and disease in geography, his argument centred along this idea that the potential of a disaster increases after the ability to adapt to arrising situations descreases. Applying this model to current climatic and economic conditions and the pessimistic idea worries me further, in a world with mega corporations controlling governments, where everyone is expendable, where job security is a thing of the past where we have an embittered middle east who kill indescriminately where is the ability to adapt?
Imagine a situation where:
Work and job insecurity means that holidays and benifits are slashed, the government whose best interest it is in to keep the corporations happy let this happen along with new legislation that under the disguise of cutting red tape but actually do nothing but further aid the corporations and route out it's competition by making life more difficult on the small independant businesses.
With the privatisation of the NHS people no longer have the right to free healthcare. It is widely accepted that state pensions are not going to be able to be paid for by the government when it comes to our retirement, the government are already taking measures to increase the retirement age. Meanwhile many private pension schemes are run by companies who have got rich and then provided nothing for the poor soul who invested in it.
So here we have Bill who has worked for Asda for shit pay all his life under the unfair working conditions, he was bought the major corporations products, the coke which has trashed his teeth the McDonalds which has left his arteries clogged. Now he is reaching retirement with no money to afford healthcare, no pension, how is he to adapt?